On my mind

There are times when it's hard to say exactly how I feel or discern a pattern in the tumult of thoughts running through my head. This is one of those times. Why I've chosen here for my of-the-moment reflections to tumble out, I couldn't tell you. Take from it what you can.

I want to find elements of satisfaction in every situation, job or relationship I have. I want the positive experiences to far outweigh the difficult, demanding ones - even if that happens only in my mind.

I want to learn to forgive others - and myself - for mistakes. I want to stop expecting life, people, jobs and relationships to meet certain standards of perfection. I want to stop taking myself so seriously.

I want to live my life according to what matters most, not just talk about it. I want balance. I want to make time for rest.

I want to live with purpose. I want to work toward a goal and shape my everyday around that goal.

I want to believe in myself and accept the person I am - imperfections and all. I want to have faith that God had a hold of me when times are tough. I want to let anxiety and fear of how I'll measure up fall away from me. I want to believe in my heart my value is not vested in anything earthly or material.

I want to hold onto the joyful feeling of full, bursting life whenever it takes me. I want to remember that feeling even when I don't feel it.

I want to move closer everyday to the person I'm meant to be. I don't want any job, situation or hurt to take that from me. I want to give of myself to others and not let the world drain me so much I can no longer do that.